Last Day of My Year...

Firstly yesterday was Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart's birthday. If he was still living we would have been 250 years old. He is really gifted in music. He started composing at the age of 5. At that age I have not even know what the piano is much less talk about composing. Within the short span of 35 years of his life he managed to compose more than 600 works. Really a Master in his art form.

At the same time at Belmore Park, I saw the official launch of CNY. They has a small stage, some food stalls and some performers from China. Well to me it was not quite up to scratch. I would have to say I have seen better lion dance and dragon dance troupes. The dragon was a little short and thin. And erm... it was a bit broken. The three lions in red, yellow and white was well lively but not enough. The pillars that the white lion stood on was not that high. And they did not do enough stunts. As the chinese family beside me said the "dot the eyes" ceremony was done wrongly. The lions were supposed to stay still and bust to life after the ceremony. But at Belmore , the lions danced in and then did the ceremony with the VIP then laid back and ended. Erm.... maybe it is different here? What can I say? But I have to pity the two guys playing the part of the lions back for the red and yellow lion. As many (I really do mean a LOT) of people young and old, male or female went up to caress their butts or the lions' butts. Some went like "smack" right on. Poor guys worst they have to continue with the performance. Then came the fortune god. Hurray! I went up to take an ang-pow from him. I think this will be the only one I get this year. It contains two chocolates coins wrapped in golden paper. I am planning to keep it to the 15th lunar day just for good luck. The highlight was the firecrackers. This is the first time I have seen them this up close. They are really LOUD. This noise is said to scare off bad luck to give us a better start for a prosperous Lunar New Year.

Now for today. Went for reunion dinner at Eating World with C and K. Ended the day with a trip to Star City. As secs tick away we will say farewell to the Year of the Green Wooden Chicken ursher in the Year of the Red Fire Dog.

The Meeting

Yesterday the animals came together. They talked about the future. How the things should go the path that should be taken. The talk is easy the walk is tough.

Went to Darling Harbour for the Aust. Day. Really I thought that I have seen all the different fireworks displays in Sydney. How wrong was I. The NYE, Christmas, Winter Concert, Jazz Festival or Lighting up. All is nothing compared to what was displayed today. They erected a tall tower right at the centre of the harbour then there were multi-colored spotlights, sparks, loud music, 3 big screens, smoke, flares, thousands screaming and of course the fireworks. I must say if you have not seen it before then you have seen nothing yet. Really till now in Sydney, this has been the best display ever yet.

The grey husky call upon the brown cat to gather together to go to the Lion's Zodiac party that all the animals in the kingdom is going. But sorry to say the cat cannot go. The cat feel deep down the wishes of the husky. Here too the cat wishes that the husky will have a great time at the Lion's Zodiac party.

Chinese New Year

CNY is 3 days away. Wishing all a better year ahead. Here comes the Year of the Dog according to the chinese zodiac. We chinese usually have a traditional 15 days of celebrations which is much like the 12 days of christmas. What am I going to do this year? As I am far away from home this year there will be no ang-pao. Sad. Issit that all I think about? Erm... there will also be the renuion dinner that I will miss. And also the new year goodies like love letters, ba kua, pinapple tarts and many many more.... Oh how I wish I could have them NOW.

Finally but not working together...

Today finally I got my completion letter after such a long long long wait. Then I went down to the Student Center but could not print out mine transcripts as the Science office did not inform them. What! This is unbelievable. The Student Center not working together with the Science Office, which did not link up with the School of IT, who did not inform the International Office. To sum it up all the different departments are not work together as a whole. I will need to make another trip to the Uni again. BTW my date is 20th April to walk the stage that is if I come back that is. Thanks to all for all the help they have rendered me over the past two years. Finally the date draws near.

Last night watched a nice show on TEN at 9.30. Hehe. Cannot tell you what it is lar. Anyway as I was walking back to the city a nice guy came up to ask me how to go to this place in Broadway Shopping Center. Actually I know where is the place but I was too but distracted by his good looks and his HOT TONED BRONZED BOD. Really muscle ripping but also not too huge in a tight polo-t. Argh! What am I doing? Anyway I told him erm... not sure. Then he gave me a mega-watt smile. Wah! If it was someone I know she sure to faint with that killer smile. So continued my way home took the lift as usually then "accidentally" got butt bummed...again?

All Happy and Gay?

At the recent Golden Globes or what some Hollywood big stars are nicknaming it the "Gay Globes". With Brokeback Mountain have four nods from the people at HFPA. It won Best Motion Picture - Drama, Best Director, Best Screenplay and Best Original Song. Whats the movie about? Gay Cowboys. The Best Performance by an Actress in a Motion Picture - Drama went to Felicity Huffman for her role in Transamerica as a man who becomes a woman. And Best Performance by an Actor in a Motion Picture - Drama went to Philip Seymour Hoffman for his portray of gay writer Truman Capote in the movie Capote. Mmm.... All happy and gay (no pun intended). Well back to the first movie ABC gave Brokeback Mountain 5/5 stars so it must be good. If have the time do watch it. BTW it isa currently banned in a few countries. Need to check your city if it is screening. While the Best TV Series - Drama went to LOST. And Best TV Series - Comedy or Musical went to Desperate Housewives. Both I have watched and felt that they were both great.

Now about another movie Memoirs of a Geisha. Sad to say SBS gave it only 2/5 stars. They commented that the movie was pulled down by bad script and poor acting. What to do? They wanted to do it in english and they got 3 great asian stars but their first language which is not english played a part to mars the whole project. From a great book comes a movie that is not that great. But why did the company wanted to do it in english at first? Just like the M. Butterfly that I recently watched at Opera House the setting is in Japan but they spoke in Italian. Feels weird. Well we will have to think about the box office taking don't we? It is all about making money. I think it will be the same for the movie. All the settings are in Japan but they are all speaking english. They also stated that the movie fail to look in to the Japanese culture as the book went in much more in detail. One more factor how come the male actors are all Japs but the female cast are all Chinese? I went very disappointed as I have read the book 5 years ago an felt that it was one of the best I have even read but it seems that the movie will not live up to it. But I must sure watch it first. But one thing is for sure as with the opera the movie will have backgrounds, backdrops, props that are breathtaking. This I can be sure...

Then she does it again...

Miss X seems unhappy that some of her readers did not agreed with her and gave her some bad comments ( I presume ). Well I am quite sure the last time I checked a knife is not and my erm throat. I read Miss X blog well to pass time and get a laugh or two at how sometimes a person can be so unreasonable. I should also stated that not all her views are wrong only some of them well not wrong but well you can judge for yourself.

She says in the first paragraph that Pes C people unhappy, RJ people unhappy, NUS people unhappy. And that they are behaving like a child for being upset at being mentioned in such a negative way. So erm... when some ones comes along and say some thing negative about you that is totally not true you should keep slient? Issn't what she said in the previous entry that we guys should be able to stand up for our rights? Put in another way when some people calls Singapore a "nanny national" or that the Govt is a bit over protective of the citizens and she gets all worked up and flares up and starts her typing of something to fight back in her blog. Now when some one else does the same protecting they own group and they are childish? And need to grow up? No matter what group you belong to be it Singaporeans, Pes C ( By the way I am Pes B. But I have met many Pes C in my army life and all of them I felt were not much less of a man then any other Pes A or Pes B that I know), RI, NUS, NTU or even SP, can't you even rebut a comment that you think is wrong? Well I think the person who needs to grow up is her not them.

She goes on to point out that she does not mean that her bf have to beat up the molester but wants he gear up enough to....(something not sure whats she wants as she gives up trying to explain.) Have she ever wondered why does so many people often does not gets whats she trys to put out? For me I think it is because she keeps changing she stand in so many matters. At first she wants her man to act if she is ever in such a situation ( she says in her blog "you would stomp the balls of someone bullying your sister, your girlfriend, or your wife." To me or anyone reading it. This means action! Go beat the molester up but said in a more vulgar way. ) Now she changes her stand in the matter and then complains that her readers do not understand her. Boy I really wonder what does she wants?

She types that she has a right to have her own views on life (correct! I would say.) So why can't she accpect the fact that others can have theirs too? If they get angry over her views in life she calls them a wimp. Or wimpish actions. To those gals who have guys whos views are different from hers. Miss X calls them as having a wimp as a boyfriend and should be ashamed of him. So now that all can read that mine views are different from hers. Does that give me a right to call her names?

I really do dismiss your your views with a wave of my hands (over the keyboard that is.) I totally agree with her that her blog is a dumbass's blog ( She states it herself. ) But sorry to say I do not love it at all in fact it is just a topic between some friends that how can someone have such unusual views on life when we are bored. And sorry I will not go away.

So when people comment on her she gets all worked up. She states that she is joking. And that she says the joking does not mean being funny but means that she is not serious. Ok then if she is not serious in her previous blog then why get so work up when others have a different view on things? Secondly erm doesn't joking means being funny or at least able to laugh at? (A joke is a short story or short series of words spoken or communicated with the intent of being laughed at or found humorous by the listener or reader. Got it from Wikipedia) Does she know what is she saying? Why she needs to push away the fact that she blog does make some people laugh? But for what they are laughing at, that I am not too sure. Are they laughing at her or her jokes? That is the question whose answer is in our hearts.

Miss X wants her readers to take what she types with a pinch of salt. But if your comments have anything not correct in her views then be perpared for a out leash by her. She preaches it but does not do it herself. Shouldn't she take the comments or views of others with a pinch of salt too?

So this insignificant one will still keep reading her blog as long as it is still free. If she starts charging which makes me a paying customer, I would really go some where else better to spend my hard earned money. Yup. Need to stop here else she might say that I am trying to busk in her glory of being a famous blogger. And that I want to be famous by riding on her waves of popularity or her huge fan base. Trust me I am not. I would just want my side or mine views to be here.

Men from Mars, Women from Venus?

I was surfing happily till I hit Miss X blog. What rubbish! She wrote or rather typed. She said that she despise guys that will not go up and beat up a molester. Stating that they lack the male ego or too self -centered or lacking of primal instinct to protect his loved ones or the weak ones. Worst she even call people who seek the help of the police ( or other men as she calls it.) fu*king stupid and a complete loser. She going on to say that the (thinking) people who gives reasons not to fight back (or pathetic limp excuses by weak men as she states) that they are Mummy's Boy and a coward. She goes on to call more names and more 4-letter f words.

Well I think she is the one who has lost it, in the brain that is. I would like to first stated that I am not from any of the RI, RJC, then NUS or NTU that she mentioned. I came from SP. Not coming from the creme de la creme of society that she mentioned, I also know that the worst thing to do it to flare up and run to go and bash up the molester. Firstly on the spot yes the male will get angry and he should not bash up the molester but catch him if possible and not leaving behind his gal and bring him to the police. If the male is to run far away to catch the molester wouldn't he be leaving the gal at the time that she feel most in need for protection? When she feel most vulnerable, most defenceless and exposed? Shouldn't he be there to make sure that she is alright?

Miss X says that to say "It is not worth it going to jail for just a molester!" is bullshit. So if it ever happens to her (which I hope it does not of course) she wants her bf or husband to bash up the molester and then go to jail for a few months then she feels good? Wouldn't his future be ruined? Is that whats she wants? But if he asks her if she is alright a not? And then goes on to call the police to lodge a report makes him less or a man? What if there was more then one molester? Does the male who rushes up and gets bash up by the group a Romeo "dying" for his loved one? Makes him a hero? To the lady that has one bf that will rush up to get bashed up, is this the kind of guy that you want? So hot-headed? So not thinking right. Weeping by his grave is the outcome that you want or crying by his bedside at the hospital? If he is so easier flared up in the future when you are with him and some close guy friend of yours that you have not seen for ages come up to hug you? Will he suddenly bash him up too? Or even may be you? Yah I know we are talking about a molester not a friend. But wouldn't the reaction of bashing up the molester the best outcome that girls want to see? What it the matter was a tat worst that the girl got raped (touch wood, never may it happen) then the girls would want her man to go and slash and stab to rapist to death? And then the girl will have to start visiting him in the jail house everyday. Is that what a really man should do? Or is this really want a girl want her man to do for her to kill another human and to be later sentence to life in prision or worst maybe sent to the gallows?

Just a spark and the men go around fighting each other? Is this the society that we want to live in? She says that she is not asking for logic. But what is the difference between humans and beasts? Thats we have logical thinking. The actions that she wants to see happen seems to more from the animal kingdom I feel. Also BTW I will not say that my gf or wife or even sister and mother is my "TERRITORY" as she claims. They are my loves one and also another human but definably not a territory! They are free to do what they want but when they need help or is hurt I will do my best top protect them. Not breaking any laws that is. If the gals wants the male to break the law to protect the her then what will it make her to be? Does she really want to talk to him with a glass window in between?

I agreed that the male should do something but this action that he do should not make the matter worst. It should not break the law. If it does, doesn't the action also make the male degrade to a same level as the molester? Going to the police I feel does not make him much less of a man. But one that is thinking and not let the emotions rule him. The police aren't they here to mantain peace and order? We should not let our hearts rule over our brains in times of danger and commits actions that we will live to regret later in life.

One more thing, what if it was the guy that was molested by some gal? Then will the gal jump forward and have a cat fight with the molester? Is this what the world is all about? Fighting and taking the law into ones own hands?

If she ever reads this she will say that she can freely express her views on life and that if I do not like it I should not read her blog, go away and never return. But it works both ways I am also free to express mine views on it. And if you want to put up a blog to the public then be prepared for slashes from all. I too have a freedom to read your blog. You can have your freedom I can have mine.

Mystery Clouds Around...

There seem to have more and more dramas on mystery these days. First there was Desperate Housewifes then LOST. Now there is Closer to Home, Threshold, Invasion and Surface. All of them are about some murder or some alien attacking or a mystery of some kind or another to keep the viewers hooked. Then they have many many subplots of each and every characters in the dramas. Then they start their lengthy drag of the show to milk as much money out of it as possible. I would think that they are not too bad but if they drag it for too long it will get quite sick. I have watched LOST and felt that I really really want to know whats on the island. But I think I will give it at most 2 more season if not much more is revealed then I think I will start to get sick of it.

Went for dinner at SUV. Thanks. At last some HUMANS...

What The Ear Listens

The other day I was walking in Paddy's Market in Haymarket with this friend when suddenly his phone rang. Then he listen to it lah (of course rite?) At the same time we were also looking at some clothes from this stall run by some Cantonese speaking people. The wife started to complain to the husband about the two of us. Say that we should not look at her clothes and answer the phone at the same time. She continues to say that we sure will not buy but only come to mess up her shop. A bit I am ok you know but she went on and on calling us this and that for 3 mins. I did not say a thing but just kept staring at the husband who over the 3 mins did not say a thing to his wife but gave me a look that might have express his doubts that I did not understand what his wife was talking about. Back to my friend who did not know much cantonese, he has finished his conversation on his mobile phone and have already seleted at the same time 2 t-shirt that he would like to purchase. I told him lets go to another shop but in english of course. What is this? The shop did NOT display any signs that you cannot choose the clothes displayed when you are on the mobile phone. What is the matter with these people? Ain't I the customer? My friend was not affected by this at all....why? Firstly he did not understand cantonese much and secondly he did not hear it himself.

I must say this is not the first time such a thing has happen. In 04 during the O-week a similar this happen at the stall. This lady was talking bad about me loudly, in front of me in cantonese all the time think that I could not understand a bit. Should I start hanging a sign on my neck that states that I understand cantonese?

Also I am begining to doubt people. The other day this gentleman and lady pulled me off the street wanting me to donate to their organsation. I told them that I was busy. but the lady said that it was her first day. And that she wanted to pratice her pitch and he then mentioned that I do not need to donate I could just help to "rate" her pitch. I was like ok (cause anyway i have nothing to do) So it began (her pitch) boy....she really did not know her stuff. First she forgot some numbers. Second her organization helps out in parts of asia so do not say all of asia. Thirdly when she asked me where I came from I said that I am from the "Sunny Island" she say yah... and went on to mention that the organisation is also the to help in children. I was please I have stayed there for 24 years and I never heard of you all before who are u trying to con? A three year old kid? Anyway as the pitch went on they push me on and on to donate. Till i could not take it anymore I burst out. I told to guy that he mention that I was to rate her not to donate. I also told that that I know that they are bluffing me when that said that they knew where "Sunny Island" is at and that the organsation is in that country to help. They kept trying to defend said that it is in Asia...Pleas I also know that. But they could not say which part of Asia. I was so not please. Yes I have to agree that "Sunny Island" is so small that on many many maps it is not even drawn. But please do not act as if you know. If you do not know I will not have any bad feeling. To make things worst the guy made many jokes about me. Firstly said that I look like 18 please please I am now 24 ok I may not be look that old but not that young also. Secondly he asked me if I have ever sold my body for money before. Is that a joke? is that a question that you want to ask people? Thirdly he went like the last time you went to the toliet and checked are u a male or female? What a question to ask!!! Fourthly I mentioned that I have donated to the Kidney Foundation before back home and he said issit because I have some kidney problems? What! Luckly I did not mention that I also help the Cancer and AIDs Foundations before back home else he will curse me with even more illness. Anyway overall bad bad bad. The lady is not too good for lying the guy is worst for not only lying but also trying to work his way out of them when found out and also making jokes that are not al all funny. Please get your facts right and work on your attitude.

There are highs and lows in life. As I was at Cotton On on the same day as above. I met a friend that I did not see for 2 months. We chatted for a whole 1 1/2 hr STANDING in front of Cotton On. Felt so HUMAN. On another note. 3 ppl told me that hometown is a nice place. So please. On an even happier note. someone friend's friend's sister said that friend friend was not bad looking....

From Dawn to Dusk

Dawn and Dusk both just as beautiful as on another. But them both have a very different meaning. One to represent the new start or a day while the other to mark the end of another. Both equally as important.

As the sun sets or rises, as the sky and clouds grow into a deep reddish orange, as the shadows stretch out into a long black lines. Is it the time for us to ponder on the new day ahead on how should we spend the day? While at the other end should we ponder on what good or evil we have done during the day that have just passed. Another day gone in life. Another 24 hours lost? Was it used to the max? How many lies did we tell today? Once the first once is said many need to be told to cover the previous ones. Then is all adds up like a balloon being blown up. Bigger and bigger it grows. Sooner or later it will bust. And once that happen all besides it will be hurt by the blast. Then why do it in the first place? Cause humans cannot resist the temptation? The truth is too much to bear. White lies are what people say to prevent others from getting hurt. But wouldn't it be worst when they realised the truth and that they have be deceived? Sad to say I guilty as charged. May the guilt torment me for life.

We need to close the mind at times to release ourselves from this guilty. From time to time we must learn how to let go. Things seems never to go as plan. But a winner is the one that tries his best to overcome the pitfalls in life. As I often tell myself always pray for the best to happen but prepare for the worst that can happen. I can only look up into the sky to dream.

Dreams will they ever come true? If they do then are they still considered as a dream? Aren't dreams suppose to be things that we wish upon to happen but will NEVER seem to happen. Miracles you say... Does it ever happen? Only in shows...or once in a hundred else it will not be a miracle will it?

Just a day ago I received a mail from a friend. I never expected the letter to come. It really did tug at mine heart strings. Thanks a million. Today was also opera nite. I must say it was beautiful. The setting, the growns that they use. The sliding door effects, the colours, candles, water and the falling rose petals all came together to create a very nice atmosphere to end the day.

As the sun sets for another day, I leave you with sorrow in my heart.

As the clouds grew grey...

At some places as the fireworks shoot up to lit up the dark sky, some people have felt the worst that could happen to them. The hands go wondering around not on their own but on others. Yes they may be a bit asking for it by going too high and too low. But It is still not right. Everyone has the right to do what they want as long as it does not hurt others. Now I finally understand why many prefer to stay away. The reasons are so outright clear yet I could not see it. It is because I have not been there for more than 8 years plus? Never will I make that mistake again. To fall into the pit is not what I want. But if I never been there will I ever know the cheap trill of it? Mind in now divided. The new day is breaking as bats fly past the clock tower that is chiming out 3 am. Time to ponder on matters that seems so distance from me.

Just Sitting Here

The new year is here but I am still just sitting here doing nothing. I am starting to feel useless. There is currently no aim in life. No special someone. Nothing that I must do. I am just sitting here waiting for time to pass. Seconds become minutes, Minutes become hours and Hours become days.

If I am to pass on now there will be nothing that will want my heart to continue to pump, nothing to keep my soul from leaving the body. Nothing to leave me attached to this world.