Take the Plunge

I am so lost. Went for this course then that course. Then this happens and that happens. Busy busy busy, but at times not sure what am am busy about. Brain is totally wasted. Mind often wonders off. Events I want, do not come. Event I do not want flock like bee to honey. Oh. Life is so often about should you or should you not. I must say that I am a "scaredy cat". I often think about this, think about that. What might happen, what will happen. It may not be in mine control at times but it seems I ponder over it for such a long time at times. I wonder did I lose a lot because of mine indecisiveness? Maybe I really did... May be I should just take the plunge. Heck care about the effects? Oh I am at it again... Seems like it is build into me like DNA. I just can't do it.