Am I Becoming Uncontrollable?

These days are hard to pass, time seem to have slowed almost to a halt. There are things that seem not to go mine way. Oh and it seems that I have succumb to the pressure, the desire, the evil side. And it not only happen once but twice. Oh how I sometimes hate myself (Don't we always do when we do something we are't supposed to do?) Why did I do it, I would ask myself after that. There seem to be two of be battling it out in my mind. But the pleasure of doing it is sometimes just to great. The desire just too strong. Why do all the evil stuff have to taste so great? Will I be come one of them?